Over thinking and terrified to make mistakes that could be critical
Im am new here and really want to work through this fear and enjoy riding. I am 47 yrs old and have enjoyed riding on the back of my husbands Fatboy. Decided to learn to ride my own. Hubby literally buys me a 2009 Honda Rebel a week later. Have the bike for 3 hours and head to practice in parking lot. Got friction down and he had me doing laps in 1 st gear. All was good till I was taking a turn to wide and panicked- went blank and reached for brake and hit throttle, dropped the clutch and ran THRU a chain linked fence- yup you heard right. So scarey I was in shock but no serious injury. Best case scenerio cause the fence slowed me down and grass on other side where me and bike landed. My wrist was xrayed but not broken. Bike had a few minor repairs. Needless to say I have a new appreciation, awareness and FEAR of riding. I took the safety class 5 days after but was so scared that I failed cause I was afraid to go into 2nd gear not really understanding the gear system. My confidence is so shaken. My husband made me go back to another lot to practice but had the throttle rev again reaching for brake. Still find I have to think about everything I do. When I'm in 2nd gear I'm thinking ahead of what process I need to do next. Took it out on a few barren sidestreets in my neighbourhood but had trouble with friction- stalled 2x's at stops. Walk by my bike daily and part of me wants to jump on and go and part of me gets so full of fear Im prayin for rain - lol. I really want to do this but feel so afraid to go blank. Thanks for the ear gals.